Cos there's You and Me.

I'm an alien

HEAD SHOULDERS KNEES TOES

And I tell myself to keep holding on.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

9:04 PM

SO TELL ME.

Jeremy Loh,you just apologised a moment ago,and now you`re doing this to me?And you think is it fair for me,and Naz,and for yourself?Now I wonder how could you have the heart to do this.Before that incident,we were great friends,we`ll talk about everything under the sun,and we both know we don`t keep secrets from each other.And a few days ago,you told me,again,how you felt,I do respect you because you realised you`re at fault,and you apologised.And now,you come telling me other things,you try to mess things up.I think you`re trying too hard.You got me so confused,so frightened.Naz,reassured me,time and again before today,but now with what you do,I fall even deeper inside.It`s not easy for me to gain back what I had,I`m pretty sure you know that.It makes it even more difficult for Naz.I hate putting him in that spot.And I hate feeling insecure all over again.I cannot comprehend this,I really don`t understand why you`re doing this to me.You said,we are friends,didn`t you?SO NOW YOU`RE HAPPY AREN`T YOU SEEING ME AND NAZ LIKE THIS?Nazryn if you`re reading this,I want you to know why I was cold towards you today.I`m sorry everything just has to be this way,I can`t even bear to bring myself to face you anymore.I don`t even know why you have to be the victim.I tell myself over and over again to not bring up this matter to you,I know you`re upset about it,but each time,I break my promise.I don`t keep my words.Dear Syahirah,to think you even deserve Nazryn.Those were the exact words Jeremy said,it keps playing over and over again in my mind,because afterall,it is true,I don`t deserve someone as good as you.